Thursday, September 29, 2011

What's is a name? CRIMSON2810

Rewind: 8 years ago, I officially started using this email address. I can't exactly remember why CRIMSON, just that I was somehow attracted to the word and later on grew to know that it was a color- a shade of red- blood red. It made no sense at that time, but the name- crimson, just stuck. and I had no intention to use any other. 

Fast-forward: 8 years later, at 25. I finally found that it was a name of destiny. After Ps Lian's message on Sunday, unfortunately I was only able to take back one main point with me- that was the real meaning of the word 'Crimson'. It was so profound that it reminded me how God was attracting me to Him, He wanted to reveal more of Himself to me, even when I had no intention to. and He did so, by hiding it in a name, so as to reveal it to kings. 

Here's the story of a Crimson or Scarlet worm- that died giving birth to its offspring. 

Look at the 22nd Psalm. This is the great Psalm of the crucifixion of Christ written 1,000 years before it was fulfilled. It describes in great detail the sufferings of Christ on the cross. "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" he cries out. Then down in verse 6...he says "But I am a worm (08438), and no man; a reproach of men, and despised of the people." What did he mean by saying "I am a worm"?...This particular worm is different from other kinds of worms. 
and “… though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.” (Is 1:18) 
There is a fascinating story behind this little worm, which will explain the profound meaning of this verse. When the life of the female coccus ilicis, (or scarlet worm) is nearing it’s end, she climbs a tree and attaches her body to it, fixing herself so firmly and permanently, she virtually impales herself on the tree, and never leaves again. Just before she dies, her eggs hatch and she gives birth to her young. The eggs deposited beneath her body are now protected from predators. Then, after the larvae hatch they are able to enter their own life cycle. As the mother dies, crimson fluid from within her body, stains her own body and the surrounding wood she is attached to. She makes the ultimate sacrifice: because of her own death, her offspring are given new life. From the crushed, dried dead bodies of such female scarlet worms, the scarlet dye is extracted and used to dye wool red. This dye is referred to in the Bible as simply “scarlet” (the color), or, “crimson” (the worm).
Psalm 22:6 speaks of Christ when it says, “But I am a worm, and not a man, A reproach of men, and despised by the people” The word “worm” in this verse, is also “towla” (the word “crimson”)… the worm;crimson, the color of blood. This verse is actually saying, “But I am ‘crimson’”, referring to the coccus ilicisand the blood of Jesus Christ that would be shed for us, as He was impaled on a tree, so that we might live.  

“But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised [crushed] for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed… For if the blood of bulls and of goats, and the ashes of an heifer sprinkling the unclean, sanctifieth to the purifying of the flesh: How much more shall the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself without spot to God, purge your conscience from dead works to serve the living God?” (Is 53:5, Heb 9:13-14)The scarlet thread is also referred to in the book of Joshua, when Rahab the harlot, hung a “scarlet” thread from her window, which preserved her life from the Israelite invasion to come. “And she said, According unto your words, so be it. And she sent them away, and they departed: and she bound the scarlet line in the window.” (Josh 2:21 Here, the scarlet thread that had been dyed using the scarlet worm’s body, is used to identify the home of Rahab, who befriended the Israeli spies, and it spared her life and her family from destruction. In the same way, we are chosen and identified by God, through the blood of Jesus Christ that washed our sins away. Is your scarlet thread hanging from your life and boldly declaring for all to see that you identify with Jesus Christ?  
By the way, did you know that in Latin, the word, “ilicis“, literally means…. “it is finished“. I wouldn’t have believed it, unless I looked it up.So, I hope, when you see red wool coats this winter, it’ll remind you of the wool of the little lamb and the little worm, “coccus ilicis”.
And thus, this continues to remind and amaze me every time I type in my e-mail or user name into an account. That the crimson Lord's crimson colored blood washes my own crimson colored sin white as snow. It is only Christ's crimson blood that can was yours white. No other. Nothing but the blood of Jesus!

isn't it just like the Lord to use the smallest things- a dead worm- to conform the mighty?

Give Jesus the glory!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

a post to remember: about dreams

just cutting and pasting Jaeson ma's post that made so much sense to me today, to be remembered as long as i live.
I have dreams that I want to achieve, more so, I have things within me that I know must be actualized. All of us have dreams, but dreams can’t become a reality unless we actually do something with what we have. We may have a lot or a little, it doesn’t matter how much, what matters is what we do with what has been given. We are each responsible for doing the best with what God has given to each of us, this is called stewardship. It is recognizing that life is a gift, everything that we are given is a treasure, and we are to be careful to not waste, but to make haste with what has been given and do something useful with it. For me, this can be really difficult, because to focus on what I’m called to do requires me to say no to what I am not called to do. Good is the enemy of great. Useful is the enemy of fruitful. Busyness is the enemy of passion. Activity is the enemy of excellence. There is so much I need to do, but there is also one thing I should do. Walk with God and be myself. Not be everything for everybody else. So I can’t apologize if I can’t respond to every email, return every phone call, meet up for another coffee, because some things need to wait, until I can become my best, I can’t actually be  my best for you. You have to learn to love yourself before you can love others truly. We get sidetracked at times, but it is never too late to get back on track and do what is necessary by ridding ourselves of the unnecessary. Sooner or later, we will get there, but it is all one day at a time, one step at a time.
Be silent. Take a deep breath. Clear you mind. Know what is important. Deny the urgent. Focus on your purpose. Decide. Work with all your heart. Leave behind something worthwhile. Envision the end, but take it one step at a time.
From my heart to the heavens, Jesus be the center!
It's all about You! Yes, its all about You!

Sunday, August 28, 2011

If I never saw the desires of my heart fulfilled, if I never got those things in life that I really wanted, if things never did turn out the way I would like to have planned, if my hopes and dreams were never realized, I would be okay.

Not because I wanted to be defeated, but just because indeed.. just knowing God, and having a restored relationship with Him was more than enough.

My dreams and desires will be fulfilled anyway, because THATS how He loves me!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Your monthly food

This post was intended to feed my blog and for making sure it doesnt starve. This is my first time in 7 years- since the birth of this blog that I attempted to change the template. Looked weird at first, but i guess everyone deserves a change. Including my blog.

It has been a good 7 years ya. Walking, stumbling on these shadowfeet towards a home-a land that I've never seen. Made of different stuff from when I began.

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Sorry for abandoning you

1stly, i would like to apologize to you- my blog for abandoning you. All i fed you the past 2 times was junk food, food full of well build make topless bodies, great choreography etc... the solids are still yet to come.

life in SG is .... blessed. on most days, i dont really feel that way, but God that eveyday is dripping with abundance. Let your mind run wild on what are the possible things i can get.
For now.. heres some more junk =P

Fill in the blanks
1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? - Closed
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? - Nope
3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? – Out. I don't like the cold
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? – No. But i helped somedone steal it =P
5. Do you like to use post-it notes? - Yes. I used to live on them.
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? - Yes
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? – Im terrified by bees. So i dont mind a bear.
8. Do you have freckles? - No, i have blemishes =.=
9. Do you always smile for pictures? – 9 out of 10 times
10. What is your biggest pet peeve? - takda kot~
11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? - No laa nthg better to do? When God says go i just GO.
12. Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? - No
13. Do you chew your pens and pencils? – No.. i prefer real food.
14. How many people have you slept with this week? - None, no sharing till the time is right, with the right person, with a legal marriage cert.
15. What size is your bed? – Single
16. What is your Song of the week? - CNBlue Im A Loner
17. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? - Depends on which guy wears it.
18. Do you still watch cartoons? – I wish i could. But no.
19. What’s your least favorite movie? - Storm Warriors remake by Aaron Kwok and Ekin Cheng.
20. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? - Under my bed.
21. What do you drink with dinner? - Water? ICe Lemon tea =)?
22. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? – Nothing, i like it as it is. I help Mcds save on their sauces.
23. What is your favorite food? – Katong Laksa!
24. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? – Madagascar
25. Last person you kissed/kissed you? – You know i know la ;)
26. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? – Yes!
26. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? - No. I think its cheap.
27. Can you change the oil on a car? - No. Thats why i have a boyrfriend ;)
28. Favorite kind of sandwich? – Smoked salmon
29. Best thing to eat for breakfast? – Half Boiled Eggs, butter toast, kopi!
30. What is your usual bedtime? – 12.30am-ish
31. Are you lazy? - Yes. I try not to be too much.
32. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? – I couldnt be bothered about halloween. i had an important birthday to celebrate.
33. How many languages can you speak? – 4
34. Which are better legos or lincoln logs? - Legos!
35. Who is better...Leno or Letterman? - I don't watch either of them.
36. Ever watch soap operas? – Yes!
37. Dance in the shower? - Nope
38. Do you think musicals are cheesy? – No
39. Is Christmas stressful? - NO. are you kidding? Christ was born to take your stress.
40. Ever eat a pierogi? - whats that?
41. Favorite type of fruit pie? – Rasberry pie
42. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? – Vetinarian
43. Take a vitamin daily? - Yes
44. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? - None. I prefer Carrefour
45. Cheetos Or Fritos? – Cheetos
46. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? - No
47. Ever take dance lessons? - No chance
48. DJ or band, at a wedding? - Band! Definately!
49. Ever won a contest? – No..
50. Do you want to get married? - Of course!
52. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? – No
53. Do you want kids? – Yes. 3 i think..
54. Whats your favorite color? – Purple!
55. Do you miss anyone right now? – Yes.. :'(

Monday, February 21, 2011

More junk food!! Heartbeat by 2PM

Perfect comfort food =P

Hi dears.. has been super long since the last update. Im ashamed of my blog, but not of myself!!! Muahahahaha!!!

Will post more serious things later, but for now.. Here's all that i found after searching for Super Junior M's latest 太完美 or 'Perfection' MV. I miss them. Will miss them even more knowing that I cant go for their 19 March concert in Malaysia!!! So this MV is comfort food for me. Hope you enjoy it as much as me! =P

Saturday, October 23, 2010

a real quick quicky =)

Hi world,

you would have taught i vanished from the face of the blog world. but i was actually a silent observer. peeking into people's blog, sniffing out the happenings in peoples lives here and there.

truthfully, i've been going through tough emotional times. (seriously, the pix above is just to amuse myself). times when you felt so much that you never knew you could feel so much in your entire life. times when a part of you' is temporarily removed and flew 100s of miles away. i couldnt help but to just feel... well.. empty. (i never thought i would be saying this also so dont ;S me). well i'll summarize everything here, to be true to the title of this blog.

1. All glory, all Honour to God who has carried me throughout the past 3 years. Thank God for my degree results. Sticking the piece of paper with 'CGPA > 3.5' DID pay off!

the stressful time balancing everything else with the 'majesty' thesis has paid off. what? so vain to post up the results?? haha well what to say, Im vain at heart and I show it in moderation.

and results have granted me the basic access into applying for an MSC. here we go again God, I surrender the rest to You.

2. Ended a terrific time interning at Hewitt Associates. Thank you guys for the opportunity to be on this great team. Indeed was Alan said in one of his speeches was true "the fun lies in the people around you'. Work would be work, but the fun after that is priceless. Our K-sessions were priceless!! You have all left an impact on my life! Thank you Rach, Theng, ChenSilly, Zatie, Prav, Suba, Lek! You have indeed been the craziest consultants on this planet! Who would know you were consultants ?! :)

3. My sayang left for UK. Leaving me all alone... ALL ALONE in KL!!!!
Hahahaha yeah rite!
First part true, second part is a joke.

Yes, my sayang left to finish his final deg year in Portsmouth, UK. Yes i was darn sad, depressed, etc etc those depressing words. But thank God for Skype, we meet every night! (or afternoon at his place). So try not to call me at Malaysian time 10.30pm-12.00am. you can try but... i just MIGHT not pick up. :P and dont blame me. *too bad*

i miss him everyday. so much that i try not to get too obsessed. God help me! seriously!

He is alive and well! And is walking with God everyday! you see... God always deserves and gets the glory. Thats is the way to go folks!

4. I've started working in LB. But Im not gonna elaborate on this. hahaha for various reaosns. Just wanna say that God is good, and His mercies endure forever! I;'ve relied on God like NEVER BEFORE FOR EVERY SINGLE WORKING DAY here. like never before you know.. just imagine. Thoughts of leaving, thoughts of staying went though my mind. But let God's thoughts be my thoughts and i will follow just that. Things are better, picking up. im stabalizing and finding my footing. that is why i can even blog now.

OK quicky done. now off to some singing and chilling out with my buds. My long awaited mental break.

miss my sayang

miss my crazy friends

miss leehom

miss our crazy trips

miss holding Diana F+

miss God

Till the next quicky.... LOVE You with the LOVE of Christ!