Dick & Rick Hoyt: Inspired by Passion, What a Father would for his child

for The Passion Quest we had in CF on friday, this video was shown as part of the quest. It touched my heart so much! i hope it moves and inspires you too!!

My Prayer Every Morning (My desired* Prayer Every Morning)

Especially during the past 1 month.. every morning of everyday was spent rushing to some place to get soooomething done. I've been in this confusing, unclear, sort of blur, unfocused condition every since i finished my last sem's final exams. I felt i sort of lost of control of things happening around me. Being the sort of person that normally *or at least most of the time having things under control.. this felt terrible. No matter how hard i tried to get things sorted out, or at LEAST stop them from going out of hand.. they just never seem to work out the way I thought they would. At one of the many points in my life... I've lost control. Whats going on?

Then when reality suddenly struck me 2 days ago.. when I totally lost control of something, i thought "Goshhh... whats happening God? what did i do wrong or didnt do right? Somehow, did YOU allow things to go thisss wrong? why??" then it hit me again..

UNknowingly all this while, my statement in my mind itself was terribly wrong.. "However i try to fix things, I'm still loosing control" I've resorted into relying on myself..my un-smart self, to get things in order, leaving Jesus at the edge of the picture, just being the frame. Many times while driving to college or driving back home, I talked to God about things..how dreadful i feel about situations around me.. how guilty i felt not being able to love and care enough for those who needed it.. and how much strength and effort was lost focusing on people and situations that were unimportant and not urgent, despite being reminded time and time again that it is UNIMPORTANT. i even made a pack with God that im taking it off my life list altogether, NO MORE.. but God knows best that at the back of my mind, it was still bothering me. in all my planning, i left God out.. goshh i feel like such a loser~

then this morning, something led me to watch this video..Lead Me To The Cross by hillsong & Fraser.. and this is what it said to me:

Saviour I come, quiet my soul, remember..
Redemption's hill where Your blood was spilled, for my ransom
Everything i once held dear, i count it all as loss

Chorus:
Lead me to the cross where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees, Lord i lay me down
Rid me of myself, I belong to You
O lead me, Lead me to the cross

You were as i, tempted and tried, HUMAN
The Word became flesh, bore my sin and death
Now You're risen
Everything I once held dear, i count it all as loss

Bridge:
To Your heart.. To Your Heart..
Lead me to Your heart...

and as Brooke said in the video blog, 'Jesus lead me to the cross in every situation I'm in today, let the cross be the central point of focus. Always lead me back to here Lord, whatever happens!'

Prov 16
vs 3 says: commit to the Lord everything you do, and your plans WILL succeed
vs 9 says: a man's heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his paths

I dont really know what I'm going to do next in terms of planning, but one thing I want to change is to stop looking at myself, what i have done in the past, or what iv planned for my future, because its in His hands. In all this, my dear Lord was trying to get my attension, He wanted my attension. He wanted my heart for Himself. Ah... a jealous God. I love Him because He loved me first! and as weak and tactless as I am, lead me back to Your heart.. dear dear Lord!

Quote from Steven Curtis Chapman

"We've really wondered whether or not we should just go to China and stay there. But I don't think so. I believe God is saying, 'I want you to go, get your heart broken, your eyes opened, and then take this story back to the church in America and around the world.'"

A Tribute to the History Making Champions: Manchester United

THIS WAS AN AWESOME GAME~~ im soooper honoured to have witnessed this part of history!!

There is much more to our redemption!!

The core of Christ’s mission is foretold in Isaiah 61:

The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners. (v. 1)

The Messiah will come, he says, to bind up and heal, to release and set free. What? Your heart. Christ comes to restore and release you, your soul, the true you.

So take him at his word—ask him in to heal all the broken places within you and unite them into one whole and healed heart. Ask him to release you from all bondage and captivity, as he promised to do. As George MacDonald prayed, “Gather my broken fragments to a whole . . . Let mine be a merry, all-receiving heart, but make it a whole, with light in every part.” But you can’t do this at a distance; you can’t ask Christ to come into your wound while you remain far from it. You have to go there with him.

(Wild at Heart , 128–29)

Im amazed at God's passion for our hearts, the deepest part of our being. He wants nothing more than it. Yet most of the time we live our lives so UNCOncoius of He's existence. Its as though being married but living like our husbands never existed. Yet while we were at our wastefulness, He still came to us and gave HIs life, just to have our 'wasted' life back. Because to Him, it was all He wanted.

Would you bear to see someone do this for you? I immediately think that im not worth anything even NEAR to that. But that is how much He loved me. He made me beautiful, fearce and fearless in Him. To Him I am everything. and i want to respond the same.

some one quoted a line from the drama series One Tree Hill: "all that girls want is someone who wants them back". i know i have found the one who wants me, all of me. In Him, this is where the love lasts forever.

Thank you my dear dear dear Lord, for more than redemption.